Old memories

Today I found a letter my old roommate wrote me when I was getting ready to move out. Reading it made me incredibly happy and nostalgic. So I found this video I made her.

WWJD

So lately, as you know, a lot of guys have been asking me out. And they actually really do want something. Trust me, I can tell. I'm not just being conceited. I swear.

Anyway, I was cleaning my room and found a WWJD bracelet. and I thought about my situation, and busted out laughing really hard and loud. because: Jesus wouldn't date any of them. because Jesus is not gay (to the best of my knowledge)

Valentines Day

Is not my favorite holiday. However, I am SOOOO excited for this weekend!! My friends Jodie and Jessica are coming to Provo, and Jessica is going to stay with me!!! And tomorrow, I'm having a girls night with Jessica, my roommate, and my two favorite girls named Sarah. It will be wonderful.

And best of all, since Jessica will be here, I have an excuse to say no to any date that I get asked on. It is marvelous news. I need to remember these times when I get sad that boys don't like me. I prefer being the best friend to this.

And it's a 3 day weekend. This is truly excellent. even sexcellent if you will.

I am a frizzball.

Because today after I showered and got dressed, I was going to let my hair air dry...but what I did instead was much more fun. I put on some fun music, and danced around my room singing into my hair brush. Curly hair does not take prettily to this. But I take happily to it. so my hair can suck it up.

Oh family of mine.

So, I have a little brother. Best kid ever. in his own way. I adore him, but I'm biased because he's my baby brother. Sometimes I love to hate him... but I always love to love him. In my mind, he is a stud. I feel like I kind of became his third mother. Because my mom worked, and my parents were divorced. I've always been a nurturing care-taker too. I love the kid. He's different than other kids his age though. He has ADHD, he's very assertive, and kind of a nerd. He's also really sensitive and gets bullied a lot. Also, he's a bit aggressive and has anger-management issues. Anyway, since my mom's second divorce especially, he's had serious problems. And they've gotten worse since I left for school. And now...bad news. He got suspended from school on Monday for bringing a knife to school. I'm so worried about him. I really want to go home and be there for him. I want to talk to him about everything. I want to give him a big hug. I want to be able to make it all better.

Boys don't want to be friends with girls

So a few days ago, I was on MLIA and there was one about a girl telling her friend that boys don't want to be friends with girls, and it got the wheels in my little head a-spinning. There are a lot of guys that I love hanging out with. and I feel like they are pretty awesome friends. But I don't want any more than that from most of the guys I hang out with.

For example, I spend TONS of time over at my old FHE brothers' apartment. They call me to invite me over if it looks like a whole day is going to pass with out me stopping by. I adore these boys, and consider them to be some of my best friends in the whole world. However, they are my brothers to me. I don't want to date them. I want them to be the guys standing menacingly in the background when I leave on dates because they feel protective of me.

And I have my friends from high school. I adore them. I think they are the best guys on Earth. I think they could all but walk on water. and if they needed to, they could probably do that. But there's only one of them that I would seriously date if the opportunity presented itself.

So does that mean that I should consider every guy that tries to become friends with me interested in me? I don't understand this principle.