Walmart trips!!

Yesterday, my roommate Kim texted me and asked me when I finished with classes, and lucky me, I don't have any Tuesday classes :) so she asked me to take her to Walmart so she could pick up a card for her little sisters birthday, and return a movie that her dad had sent her.
So we were looking at the cards, singing songs to each other, laughing, and just goofing off.
It was way fun. Then this completely random guy came up to us, and asked if he could ask us some questions. We looked at each other, and nodded. Why not?
So he asked us if we had seen a bunch of movies. I had never even heard of most of them.
Then he asked if we had seen the High School Musical movies. Of course we both laughed and said yes. When he asked if we liked them, after a brief pause, we said that they were cheesy, but cute.
He agreed, then told us that he worked for a talent agency that did the casting for extras in those movies he had listed. He told us that we were really pretty, and he thought we would be good for High School Musical 4. So we gave him our names and phone numbers--not the smartest idea, but we figured we could change our numbers if we needed to. He also gave us his card, so we could contact him. I spent hours checking it all out last night, and it seems legit. even the websites that said it might be a scam said they could get bit parts. and that's all I want. I don't want them to help me make it big.
So then today they called me!! I couldn't answer because I was in class, but I'm going to call them back after classes. if they want me to pay to take classes or anything, then I'm going to say no. because that's really lame.
But it would be cool to be in HSM4...either way, it's a cool story.

emotional day

Yep...it's been a drainer.
I took a really big step in the right direction, and learned a lot about myself.
I also counted down the weeks until I can serve a mission.
121 for those who are wondering.
my BFF got a letter from Dallon. I've sent him at least a letter a month. plus 3 packages. I've gotten 1 letter, and 3 sentences at the end of a family email. She's sent 2 letters plus some space on the tape. She's gotten 2 letters, a valentine, and an application to date an rm. I'm trying not to be sad. I am glad Brittani got a letter. I love her, and she deserves it. however. I do want to know why he hasn't written me. I'm trying not to like him anymore. I'm trying to change my focus. I even left the MGs on facebook (hardest thing I've ever done). I'm trying not to like any guys. there are things I need to do for me first. Unfortunately for me. I'm madly in love with this Reddish boy. for real. I don't think I've cried as long in a long time than I did over not getting a letter this week. The only reason I even know he's gotten my packages is passing references in his family emails or Britt's letter.
Also...Nathan...yeah...trying not to like him. New goal is he has to contact me first...always. It's the only way I'll get anywhere.
This weekend=no good.
I spent Saturday night home alone while my roommates went to the basketball game. I was so lonely, and felt unwanted. they didn't even invite me to come.
I spent Sunday feeling kinda dejected and alone. Kacy Ann did notice...but I don't trust people enough to let them in. I don't trust them to take care of me. So I kinda pushed her away. I feel really bad...I just don't know how to change. I had my happy mask back on by dinner though.
Also on Saturday...my Bowen 15 girls were all busy, which is why I didn't go visit them. and Brittani had a date. I texted her to see if she was done...and by the time she was, I was watching a movie...so I texted Nathan, to see if he wanted to do something. He said he would call me after he finished homework...he texted me after I was asleep..."sorry, when I was almost done, Rebecca called me and invited me to go see morning light I was going to invite you but it was a date. sorry :(" I understand him being busy...I just wish he had let me know.
Anyway. I need to work on talking to people when I need them. I have an amazing support system...I just need to use it. I have the best friends in the world, I just can't bring myself to talk to them, because I don't want to bring them down...and I am very co-dependent. meaning that I do whatever it takes to make them happy. I don't take time to take care of myself. I need to lean on them a little bit too. I don't know if any of that made sense. but it did to me.
I'm getting places. I just need more work. it will all be good.
today=not the best day.
tomorrow=much better